The book of James helps Andy B get real about some struggles he's been having with being double minded.
It's never easy admitting you've been getting something wrong.
But there is a beauty of the conviction that comes from getting honest with God, and allowing the Holy Spirit to minister to us as God's hand crafted people.
So Andy B 2 Minute Video.
I was thinking really simply from James. I'm just gonna read it out. This is James Chapter 1.
"If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask God, who gives generously to all without reproach, and it will be given to him. But let him ask in faith with no doubting for the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea that is driven and tossed by the wind. For that person must not suppose that he will receive anything from the Lord. He is a double minded man, unstable in all his ways."
Nice and gentle from James as ever.
But the thing is I have been of late a double minded man.
I've been wanting to do the Berry Bunch and we've been doing that for a year; we've grown it; it's developed into something that we never dreamed it could be, which is amazing!
But I'm constantly thinking, yeah, but it's not really doing what I thought it should be. Is God really wanting us to do this? Shouldn't this happen, or that happen?
I was getting in a bit of a headspace that wasn't, really, particularly helpful.
Chatting through Jo, and I was led to James 1, and those verses I've just read and the conviction of the Holy Spirit is a beautiful and wondrous thing 'coz when we're convicted we're set free:
the moment I spoke out those words to Jo, "I think I'm being double minded", which is something that nobody ever thinks of me as: most people who talk about me, or talk to me, or whatever, would describe me as the kind of person that is really stalwart; he doesn't change - in a good way - is flexible, but he knows what he believes and thinks. And he just is very tenacious, and all that kind of stuff.
That's the good that people would say of me. And yet, of late, with the BerryBunch stuff I've been thinking, is this really what God wants?
And I'm giving myself an exit the whole time - for if it fails, or doesn't work.
And as I start these little daily vlog things, these Andy B Two Minute Videos: I've just set it up on my computer so it's about as raw and as real as ever can be.
But where are you being double minded? Where am I being double minded? Let's not fear the conviction of the Holy Spirit 'coz it sets us free!
It doesn't crush us and make us feel worse. It actually liberates us and set us free.
That's the beauty of the scripture!
That's the beauty of the gospel!
That's the beauty of God!
So where are you being double minded, like I've been double minded. As soon I said those words I realise I was set free; we had a great time filming Little Blessings this morning. It was fantastic!
So where you being double minded?
And there's this little piece in here that really struck out to me.
"For the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea...that person must not suppose that he will receive anything from the Lord".
And I've been struggling with thinking well 'where's God; is he around; is He really there?'
Well if I'm double minded I'm gonna to offend the Holy Spirit and I'm not going to help God helping me.
So let's not upset the Holy Spirit.
Let's not upset God.
Let's make sure we're not being double minded, and walking in faith.
And if God's given you something to do, do it with all your heart and mind and your soul, give to God and go for it!
Written by The BerryBunch